As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about what we once had
We were once happy and inseparable
Now it’s so hard not to be sad

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about the way things used to be
We kept each other up when we were down
Now I don’t know if you even think about me

When the world around me came crashing down,
I always turned to you
As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I have no one to turn to

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about just holding your hand
It’s hard to sit here knowing you’re not around
Not knowing where we stand

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about how much I’m hurting inside
You’re the one true love I’ve ever known
The fountain of love that we had has now dried

There were times when I felt like all I had was you
When I needed to vent, there you were
As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I wonder if this relationship could endure

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I remember how we thought that our love could fix anything
One of us still thinks that way
You now don’t think that love could fix a thing

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about how much you still mean to me
But we are now in two separate worlds
Is this how you want it to be?

As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
Let’s both look deep into our hearts
We have to find the love that once was so strong
Our love was strong at the start

My world revolves around you
Nothing else really seems to matter
As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I think about wanting things to be better

You, beautiful are like a drug
I can’t function without you
As I sit here wondering where we went wrong,
I don’t know what I’ll do

With you not being here with me,
My days and nights seem so long
I want you here with me but until that happens,
I’ll sit here wondering where we went wrong

Dear Janelle Halili,

First i just want to say thank you for coming into my life. I remember the day we met and came into my life at that time i knew you were something special. You were sent to be my angel and i give thanks to that angle that sent you to me. Thank you for everything.

I miss those times where we would call each other and spend hours on the phone till 5 in the morning just talking about anything and everything. When I was exhausted at the end of the day and I called, you were always there to listen to me, to keep me fighting. You have been my inspiration, you helped me achieve my dreams. I miss those days where i drove to your work after i get done working just to see you for 5 minutes which made the trip all worth while because just seeing your beautiful face always was the best thing of that day.

I know I'm not the kind of man you've dreamed of, but I feel like im better an all the guys out there. I remember I once told you, "I don't care if you don't love me, i will always love you and fight for you till i have you". If you only knew, you were my life, my everything. If you only knew how happy I was to have you and how my life isnt the same without you.

I know that I've hurt you so many times and that I shouldn't be bothering your life. I know that you want me to let go of the hopes i have of us being together, but still here I am fighting with all i got just to hear you say im yours and your mine. Things really changed when you left. My life started to have no meaning because you were everything even though you hated that i made you my life.

I kept in blaming myself, it was my entire fault. I've been too selfish, too hard on myself in trying to fight for you. Now I'm starting to realize that you were too good for me. You are a very loving woman and you deserve someone better than I am. I tried to change somethings about myself, but my efforts were not enough. I hope somehow, I made your life special, though I've not been perfect for you. I hope you'll be happy now and that you can find the person whom you truly deserve.

If you really decide to let go, then I can do nothing. I know sorry is not enough for the things I have done but I hope my sincerity is enough. I regretted those foolish things that I've done. Because of those things, I lost you, I lost my life.

But if you can give me another chance, I swear this time I'll make sure I won't hurt you and never, ever let you go, but i know that is a rare possibility that can happen.

Even if it will take me a lifetime, I will wait for you until you come back. I would not want anybody love but yours. I'd rather be alone than to be with someone who can't take your place.

We've done our best to make our relationship last longer, but things happen. I would not  forget our memories, they are too special to forget. I wont forget the things in our past that made us both better individuals. I want to give you your space, find what makes you really happy, and find what makes you. It doesnt mean i gave up on you or leaving you. it is not the case. you will always have a special place in my heart, i will always consider you as the love of my life. I consider myself lucky to experience a love that i have felt for you for all these years. For now i guess this is the last time i say I love you, Mahal. Im always here loving you and never giving up the love i do have for you. I will always want your love that you possess

I will always love you.